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Healing
So a couple nights ago was an incredibly hard time for both Raven and I. I because of grief and sorrow about impending loss combined with hanging out with a friend who annoys and overloads me. And Raven about the latest book on food and the future of food security he had read.
We're both grappling with this stuff still, but this Night took a lot of the stress away.
We lay in bed together talking, and every once in a while touching, holding each other through the crying (occasionally), the tension building slowly until until we were whispering sensual promises and threats in eachother's ears. Until we decided that we were going to get out the rope tonight. I begged him to bind me.
He tie my wrists to my ankles, ankles tied together. When I'm tied every touch feels a little like pain because I can't control whether the touch is going to escalate. A space opening up big enough to hold the dark cloud in its entirety and change it. Both of us shuddering and dripping.
Afterwards The great dark cloud was still there, but there was something else there. I said I felt healed, and Raven said "I'm healed too" and he was.
Healing is good, whatever form it takes.
Warning: Rough draft. Rough and incoherent.
We're both grappling with this stuff still, but this Night took a lot of the stress away.
We lay in bed together talking, and every once in a while touching, holding each other through the crying (occasionally), the tension building slowly until until we were whispering sensual promises and threats in eachother's ears. Until we decided that we were going to get out the rope tonight. I begged him to bind me.
He tie my wrists to my ankles, ankles tied together. When I'm tied every touch feels a little like pain because I can't control whether the touch is going to escalate. A space opening up big enough to hold the dark cloud in its entirety and change it. Both of us shuddering and dripping.
Afterwards The great dark cloud was still there, but there was something else there. I said I felt healed, and Raven said "I'm healed too" and he was.
Healing is good, whatever form it takes.
Warning: Rough draft. Rough and incoherent.